I just don’t feel right in this town anymore. No part of me has any sense of belonging here. It’s been pretty difficult keeping myself in my own mind here lately…I just want to get away from this place…its disgruntling just passing the time in this town. When you know you are going to leave a place you can’t make any future arrangements, so my whole life is in lieu until i’m done with this semester and gone. I’ve had some good times the last two weekends, it’s been nice….but i have been putting ALOT of effort into school. Considering any amount of effort would be considered copius on my part. I’ve been feeling pretty lonely all together, but thats from lack of relation and any sense of relativity to my surroundings…although i’ve learned to live with it I will never find it comfortble, yet i feel i’m only striving further away from everyone else with each passing day.  I’ll be glad to re-focus and prioritize when i go to my fathers. I’m really looking forward to it. As for thanksgiving and christmas, I have no anticipation for either of those. I don’t have much appreciation for family gatherings, wherein i have a real disdain for the whole lot of circumstances encompassing the "christmas season". I love the lights. They are beautiful. Every other accountable action from these events I feel like smiting in all their own gratuitiously blasphemical behaviours. I hope all of you remember there is a hell made specifically for the voluntarily blind people of this earth. This could be a never ending rant.

Happy Holidays and Seasons Greetings.

Hopefully the alien attack/nwo is imminent cause i don’t want to have to do this alone